Sometimes I feel.......

Sometimes I feel like a soccer mom. Things have kind of slowed a bit these last few days, but it is always an adventure. Yesterday I was out in my round pen pulling weeds in 100 + degree weather, sweating profusely, bent over, and not the prettiest picture I'm sure when I hear my son say momma your beautiful! I felt like a million bucks after that. Only a child would tell you looked pretty at a time like that.

Sometimes I feel I have lost my identity as a person. Suddenly you are mom. That is your job title and the way you are viewed. This is especially true if you are a stay at home mom like I am. I know there are people out there that think moms who stay at home sit around and watch soaps all day. I even read a blog one lady wrote about secrets stay at home moms keep. Basically the blog confessed that moms do sit around and do watch soaps etc. All I want to now is in what life? The only time the T.V is on at our house is early in the am when my son watches a few cartoons. I don't even usually sit down at night to watch T.V. I don't know who has time to do that. I have to make myself take time to sit down and actually play with my kids. My house is not neat my most people's standards and yet I never really sit still. I never get to the bottom of the laundry pile. I am up every morning by 6:30 thanks to my sweet little Rose. When they take naps in the afternoon, I steal enough time to do my work out video or maybe get on the comp for a little bit. Other than that we are going and doing. It is an amazing demand on you mentally.

Don't get me wrong I still do make time to do things for me. I have never been the kind of mom who forgets that I was a person before I had kids. I know my identity can not be my kids. Yet, it is easy to feel that you are looked at like that all the time. I have started working out again. I especially need this as I am not doing much horse stuff at all. I feel better already it really is a stress relief and gets your blood pumping for the day. Also, I'll feel better when I can get into some of my other clothes. I'll have a whole new wardrobe. As a mom it is really hard to make time to work out. I don't have the money to go to the gym and am not very disciplined to work out by myself. However, a friend of mine who is also a stay at home mom with multiple kids told me about this workout so it helps me do it to know she is doing it too. Anyway, just rambling have the whole day ahead of me so who knows what it will bring.